Fear is extremely difficult to overcome, especially when you were close to death multiple times. Human beings that experience a traumatic experience in their lives, will probably fear for the rest of their life.The feeling of living with a trauma or a fear that paralyzes you could be abhorrent and stressful.
While gliding through heaven in an type of spaceship called bodyboard, I felt how the massive wave pulled me in and gobbled me in the sand. There was literally no way out. I couldn’t see anything. I just remember that it was all black. Oxygen had already run out of my lungs, and by luck I was able to make one last effort to push myself towards the surface. I did make it out alive, but in my heart I knew I had been saved by a huge rush of luck. Still until today, I remember this moment like as if it was yesterday. After long days watching friends bodyboard and, fearful, confused I asked myself: Should I try again? Will I feel the same feeling as last time? I talked with my Dad, he told me all his stories and opinions. I realized that I was stuck in a bubble of fear, of agoraphobia. I strengthen myself and tried little by little to fight my fear back with empowerment and courage. It wasn't easy, i'm proud of the result. 2 medals, one bronze and one gold is what should be proud by my proudness goes more to my courage and strength. symptoms.
Traumas, shocking moment in your life where you fear repetition of the same place, moment, feeling, pain. I woke up in a black room, lift up my hand and placed it one centimeter away from my eyes, still couldn't see it. My first reaction was shout. As my eyes started to get used to the dark, a nurse came and told me that I had successfully gone through a three hour surgery because my appendix exploded. Therefore, I remembered everything. It all started when I felt pain and went to the hospital. The results said it was just a “virus”. Five days later the pain in the stomach was so hard that I couldn't sleep at nights neither eat at days, this shocked my parents. I traveled 100 km to lima, there, they told me I had appendicitis for long period of time so it exploded. Later that day, I was informed that if I had arrived six hours later I couldn't have been saved. Until today when I have nightmares I remember and fear hospitals, it is a fear that until now I can’t overcome.
I noticed that I had something called Agoraphobia, which is very common in human lives. It’s fear of fear. Fear of a thing or a place where you experienced a trauma. In my case I had Agoraphobia to hospitals and waves. You might avoid panic attacks most of the time, but the anxiety never goes away. You're always worried about the "next time". Fear of re experience a traumatic moment. The more you avoid, the more anxious you become, and next thing you know, your life has become quite limited, and filled with worry and shame.